Wandering Aussie
Week 3 of 52
SW : 174kg (Sep 2010)
CW : 145.5kg
GW : 70kg
A bit up and down week. I’ve been screwed around by people, and I’ve decided to refocus again on myself. I find I start feeling needy in these circumstances, and not really strong enough to fight my inner child. It’s still healing, and putting it in situations that it’s not really comfortable is not good for my progress.
Started at Photography course last week. The teacher is awesome, and I’m looking forward to see how it goes. I need to take an ornament / light source / backdrop for class tomorrow night, and I can’t believe how stressed I am about it. It’s just nerves cause it’s something new. The other thing is I don’t really have that many ornaments. I don’t tend to stuff my house with those kind of things. So I’ll let you know what I come up with tonight.
Fitness wise it was a good week. More KB workouts, and more walking. I still have foot pain, and I’m going to be carrying out a little experiment over the next few weeks to spur some more weight loss on, to remove some of the pain. Yes it’s a little bit of rapid loss, but I’m so far overweight, a bit of this isn’t going to hurt.
Dropped 1/2 a kg this week. As long as it’s going down I’m not going to stress about it.
Mental health. I keep learning more and more about myself as times go on. I’m more self aware, and start seeing things I’ve never noticed before. The longer term goals though is to regain my confidence at life. Nothing scares me more than humiliating myself publicly. And I need to get over that. It’s part of the introvert in me, but I need to be less frightened to do new things.
Week 2 of 52
SW : 174kg (Sep 2010)
CW : 146kg
GW : 70kg
It’s been an interesting week. I’ve dropped another kilo, which I’m really happy about. My feet are still giving me issues, but my new orthodics which are even more aggressive should solve this. The pain is completely gone in one foot, the other it’s moved from the arch to the back of the heal. We went in the right direction, just need to do the final thing.
This week I need to get more walking in, to break in the new orthodics, plus I’ve started throwing the KB around as my knee is finally starting to co-operate.
In my personal life, I started dating again, it was just a nice distraction, and I’m taking it real slow. I’m in no hurry to jump in and do something completely crazy, and screw up my progress. I have other priorities here which are more important.
I’m also starting to feel a lot more settled at home.
Still getting to know myself though. I find it weird how awkward I am when I’m just hanging out doing things on my own. I really don’t like being left with own thoughts for too long. They get really weird. One thing I’m noticing is, I’m missing a lot of people from my past. Ex’s, friends etc, that I either hurt, or just let go. I feel like they will never come back, and my life is less because of it. I’m hoping that feeling will pass.
See you next week.
Adz
Week 1 of 52
A week ago, I decided to kick myself in the arse again. For the next year will be doing a weekly review. See how things are going, and any significant changes I’ve made. Yes there will be your regular programming as well :P
I’m also getting my travel site / photo blog back up as well. As I want to get the planning under way for my adventures. And all of it will end up there. With occasional link backs to here.
So I had a pretty good week. Weight seems to be shifting again. I got out walking a couple of times, which did create a fair bit of pain in my feet, but it was manageable with ice, and strapping. Not jumping on the scales till the end of the month.
Personal life is pretty meh at the moment. But it will improve. I just seem to be in a quiet phase right now, and socialising doesn’t seem to interest me that much. It’s more to do with my own feelings, and the mental health battle that seems to be going on right now.
I also know how hard I am on myself. But that’s just another behaviour that I’m slowly unlearning.
I may have some news on the home front in the next few days. I have an opportunity it seems, and want to discuss it first before revealing what is going on.
More next week :)
