Wandering Aussie

Feet issues, fears, moody, and other distractions…

Lately I’ve been distracted. There is far too many things vying for my attention, and I’m losing sight of the important things. As a consequence my eating has been less than optimal, my fitness has been lacking, and my mood is all over the damn place. There has been a lot of things going on.

I’ve moved house, I’ve been trying to get my feet sorted, the revelations in my sessions with my shrink have been throwing me a curve ball. All in all, I’ve been a ball of anxiety, and it has been creating a lot of fear in my life. Fear unfortunately which has been preventing me from doing some of the simple things. 

My reaction to fear is hide. Stick my head in the sand and hope it goes away. I’m fighting against years of programming at the moment, and sometimes I need to take a step back to sort out what has been going on. I’ve also got the added stress that the place I’m house sitting is selling a lot faster than the owner, and myself were expecting, so I will be on the move again a lot sooner that I thought, which is creating it’s own set of challenges.

So today I’m kicking myself in the arse again. Time to get refocused on the things that are important to me. I have to make time to get this stuff done, and also to make allowances for myself to get some of the fear under control. I know it’s effect, and I know what helps it, and what makes it worse, so I can work around it.

My feet have been getting strapped 3 days out of 4 now, and going to continue this so I can actually get some physically exercise done. My knee has been a bit dodgy as well, and it also needs to be strapped. The excuses need to stop. I’m seeing the guy who makes the orthodics this week, as we are going to go more aggressive to see if that fixes the heal pain.

Time to get back into the game.