Wandering Aussie
Anonymous
Q: I would date you if I was local to you. You seem focused, and committed to what you want out of life. I think it's great, and very addictive. That more attractive to me than what anyone looks like on the outside.
A:
Thank you :) *blush*
Why be anon? If you send me non anon I’ll answer privately.
Anonymous
Q: You seem to be very focused at the moment. I'm proud of you. Don't let anyone get in the way of what you are trying to achieve.
A:
I won’t be. And thank you :) Glad people are noticing. Sometimes I feel like I’m all on my own.
Anonymous
Q: You're an adorable bear, Why wouldn't you want to stay one?
A:
A few reasons actually.
- Type 2 Diabetic. Although my sugar control is excellent, removing weight will make this task even easier. So it’s very important to me.
- The reasons for being overweight in the first place are evaporating (ie. it was protection from life, it was my way of creating a barrier between people)
- There are so many things I want to experience, and places to visit around the world. And a lot of them require some level of fitness. Some of them extremely so.
- There are others relating to body image, and the way I feel. Plus the general issue of being tired all the time.
- I don’t wanna be the big sweaty fat guy any more. I like who he is, I’m just not sure he is necessary.
Week 3 of 52
SW : 174kg (Sep 2010)
CW : 145.5kg
GW : 70kg
A bit up and down week. I’ve been screwed around by people, and I’ve decided to refocus again on myself. I find I start feeling needy in these circumstances, and not really strong enough to fight my inner child. It’s still healing, and putting it in situations that it’s not really comfortable is not good for my progress.
Started at Photography course last week. The teacher is awesome, and I’m looking forward to see how it goes. I need to take an ornament / light source / backdrop for class tomorrow night, and I can’t believe how stressed I am about it. It’s just nerves cause it’s something new. The other thing is I don’t really have that many ornaments. I don’t tend to stuff my house with those kind of things. So I’ll let you know what I come up with tonight.
Fitness wise it was a good week. More KB workouts, and more walking. I still have foot pain, and I’m going to be carrying out a little experiment over the next few weeks to spur some more weight loss on, to remove some of the pain. Yes it’s a little bit of rapid loss, but I’m so far overweight, a bit of this isn’t going to hurt.
Dropped 1/2 a kg this week. As long as it’s going down I’m not going to stress about it.
Mental health. I keep learning more and more about myself as times go on. I’m more self aware, and start seeing things I’ve never noticed before. The longer term goals though is to regain my confidence at life. Nothing scares me more than humiliating myself publicly. And I need to get over that. It’s part of the introvert in me, but I need to be less frightened to do new things.
bobbyfreakouthour replied to your post: Oh I give up…
Dont date. Just be active in the community and meet people. Be social, ask to spend time with people. :)
Yeah that’s what I’ve been doing. My biggest annoyance is, there is a sub-culture in the gay community that loves bigger / bearded guys ie. bears. I have no problem with this in general, but I tend to attract guys who like that look.
They also don’t want me to change. Which I’m not going to do for anyone. My fitness/health etc is more important than that. So situations like this will continue to occur.
Like I said I dipped my toe back in the water, and for now I’m done with it. Just going to keep concentrating on what I want to do, and see what comes along in time.
